This past year has been all about learning to unlearn. Understanding that it’s okay to change my mind about things. It’s okay to reserve opinions about concepts I don’t know much about. It’s okay to admit I don’t know much about anything. It’s okay to allow myself the space to grow and the time to learn. The only true wisdom is knowing when you do not know. There is so much I don’t know it keeps me up at night. But for the first time ever I’m excited to change my mind. Literally. I’m excited to start exercising this new version of my self. I’m excited to renew my mind often and radically. There is so much to learn and I’ve made it to 2021. It’s time to start observing my life as a third-party viewer; to critically analyze my decisions. They belong to me but they are not me. Do you see the difference, future Nobody?
I wrote this on January 1st, 2021 and I’ve been so afraid to make my words public. I’ve spent years evading vulnerability. In doing so, I’ve failed to take accountability in my life; for my actions, emotions, and my very own well-being. I’ve made so many mistakes. I’ve said so many things I wish I hadn’t. In the moments, they were honest to my internal self. Everything I’ve said and done in my lifetime has come out as a response to something. I’ve spent too much time criticizing my past self: the past Nobody. But that Nobody is so much different from this Nobody and both Nobodies have much to learn.
I don’t know what sharing these excerpts on the internet is going to do for anyone but it sure does pass the time.
In My Heads 